I'd have to say the last 6 to 7 months has been pretty upsetting.
It started when we lost a dear friend, Kermit Miller, to an atv accident.
Next we lost my wife's grandfather. He was one hell of a man. WWII vet. Retired mechanic from the border patrol. He was in the late stages of dimensia. Everyday for him was living in the 40's and 50's. We went along with him but it was painful to see him not recognize us or when he would call his daughter by his wife's name. She passed the first year that my wife and I were married 18 years ago. Physically he was all there but the mind was somewhere else. He would push the little old ladies around the retirement home. One of which only spoke spanish. We were amazed to see him translating and speaking fluent spanish. My father in law said that he hadn't heard him speak spanish since the 70's when he retired and moved to foot hills of the Rockies in New Mexico. We lost him to what was thought to have been a heart attack. Turned out his heart had developed an irregular beat and he had just fainted from shortness of breath. During CPR, one of his ribs was fractured and it punctured a lung. He past in the hospital a few days later.
Next we lost a very dear family friends little 2 year old grandson. This one makes me the angriest and will for a long while until I see justice. The medical examiner ruled his death a homicide.
http://www.kwtx.com/content/news/Local-man-charged-with-child-sexual-assault-in-toddlers-death-365589341.html Then a family friend's uncle died of a farming accident. Roland was 86 and there was never a cross word spoken of that man. Was feeding cattle and left his truck in neutral when he was pinned between the door of the pick up and a fence post.
Late Sunday my Granmom had a severe stroke. She's 85 and a shell of the woman she once was. She's back at home with hospice and unresponsive. I could hardly stand to look at her in that condition. Weighing all of 69 pounds. I admire her for having a living will. No food, no fluids and a DNR order. Her mind was as sharp as ever as I spoke with Sunday afternoon before the stroke. Physically she was brittle but her mind was sharp.
I've made my mind up.... When it's time, I want to go out quickly. Take me out to the pasture and put me down.
